I am really good at this blog thing

I like how I only really post once a month. I also like that I get really ambitious and think "hmm, I'll actually start posting on my blog regularly" and I never do. This happens every time. Originally (and when I say originally I mean after I deleted all my former posts and decided to tackle the job of documenting my student teaching) I meant to post about school and my last semester of actual classes before being full time in a classroom; however, I have been incredibly busy and when I wasn't busy I was lazy so I just haven't gotten around to posting anything about that, but I will, eventually.I want to be motivated to post all my stories about my kiddos, so I'm going to try and convince myself to start doing that.

"The future freaks me out"

So I haven't made a post in quite awhile. I've been very busy. It's funny how I feel like I have so much to do, but if somebody asked me what I was doing at any particular moment, I would probably say nothing. I think it's just that I get so tired of everything, that I just need to sit and watch episode after episode of Dawson's Creek, which is exactly what I did this weekend. It was a nice break from reality, but I really need to buckle down. I have 3 more big lessons I have to teach in March, I have to take the Praxis II, and worse than that I have to study for the Praxis II. But I can't seem to find my motivation anywhere. And even though I am super excited to get my own classroom, as the time gets closer I just get more and more scared. What if I can't do it? What if I get a horrible class and realize that it was all a huge mistake? That I can't handle what I thought I want to do. I just wish I could push pause. I'm not ready to grow up and do everything on my own. I just want to stay 21 and hang out with my friends and watch 90's primetime television. Future is a scary word. It evokes excitement and fear all at the same time. It's something I need to start adjusting to; if only I could find my motivation.

New year, new beginnings.

So this is probably the third time I've scrapped all of my previous posts on this blog and started over, but since this is just a place to put my feelings and experiences, I am ok with it.

Anyways, I have decided to make this a journal of my last two semesters of school. I am excited to post all about my sweet little second graders and the neat ideas I get to share with them. I can't wait to be a teacher and I am a little overly excited about it.

Here's to a new year, a new semester, and new beginnings.